#Victory isn’t supposed to feel like this #it isn’t supposed to tear people apart
#but what happens when it does? #what happens when it fractures? #what happens when you win but loose too much in the process? #the sound of you leaving hurts more than the sound of trickling blood
Dean brings it up later, why did you leave? But all Cas can say is How could I stay? It takes a while for Dean to realize that he’s not saying I didn’t want to be with you but rather, I wanted you to be you again, and you couldn’t, not then. Because Dean without Sam is Dean with a sucking chest wound, so there was never really a choice to make, just a plan to work out. How do I get into the cage and out again?
And later on, it’s never will I, should I, could I save the world for him while he sleeps, but, how do I go about doing it without disturbing him?
(via partofmealwaysbelieved)

